Forgiveness

is something I am still struggling at.

Today, I read a beautifully written article by Jojo Struys. Here's the link in case you are interested. It is about forgiveness. She mentioned how by just a simple forgiveness can heal a great deal of suffering that one has been carrying on their back. The inspiration of her article came from the Aba Gayle's story. How her daugther was brutally murdered and how the day she finally had the strength to forgive the murderer is the day she finally be able to be happy again.

This make me think about the time, the one time I find it so hard to forgive a person. This person is someone I have never met but have done something that almost took away my family.

This person whom I went to great length to do just about anything so that every inch of her life is miserable. Miserable isn't strong enough to describe what I did. Yes, I did that and I was never proud of it. All in the name to protect my family.

Today for the first time, I thought of forgiving. Forgiving the person whom I hated so much. So much that sometimes I woke up with nightmares. I realize I had already done the first minor step when I mentioned her (indirectly) through one of my entry. This is the second time. I wonder...if this is the first step to forgiveness?

Oh God, please give me more strength to do this. This burden and hatred that I have been carrying for 5 solid years...

I hope the day will come when I will finally be able to feel liberated.