I blardy emo for a week!

*I swear by the end of this post, I will not be depressed anymore*

I am officially back here in KK, Sabah fo a week with no roommate around of any of my favourite girlfriends. (except Sharpay and LuLu but both have boyf to attend to).

I cried twice because of 1) loneliness and 2) homesick! The second time was when I read how all the KCBA DYC committees were having a blast at Pyramid and how I could not be there, and yes, I got all depressed.

Sometimes, being alone in the room with nothing to do, I will start to feel all emo and homesick. I start to lose all the appetite and only eats one meal per day. ( and that is to prevent me from getting gastric)

When Lulu and Sharpay told me to just accept the fact that I am here, I think they do not really understand why am I depressed and I do not blame them either.

I am still thinking of how to celebrate christmas eve and at times, it gets pretty scary if I have to be all alone again during christmas eve when everyone from camp is there at Jessy's house.

I hate to be like this! I am never this weak! This is so not me!

I promise to try get out of this...